on my way

lo' and behold the joys of social interaction. i find myself in the customary emotional tango. i noted, it's very strange how it works so harmoniously and well-balanced. it almost functions as a built in system operating beneath our very noses. well, seeing as no one reads this, i can spill my inner turmoil all over this css/html-coded jumble of words.

as it seems with a majority of stories from the male perspective, it starts with a girl. everything seems fine, until you see someone that just has that something that draws you in. the most conflicting part is that you're unsure what it is. it's that attribute, possibly buried so deep in your skull, it would take a makita drill to uncover. it's the one that you can't put your finger on and lures you in. is it a wond'rous charismatic aura about the girl? or is her mysterious demeanor? there's a curiosity in me about her in ways that form an inspired desire to learn more about her. so far, from what i know about her, she seems very intelligent with a pleasant, yet cynical spin on the world of humor. this girl enjoys going out and having a good time and yet, from what i know about her at this point, she seems as if she would be amazing to chill with as well. i hope in the end, all is well.

i could be doing something about it. we're talking a walk tonight, the formulation of a few nights of failed plans. however, i don't take those too harshly in mind, for not all plans will be executed flawlessly. i have homework to do, but my confidence seems to be spiking up and down feverishly. i find myself incapable of focusing on homework due tomorrow. make sure to say this, don't stress that. maybe i'm better off just going in without thinking it all out beforehand.

and so here i sit, scribing a note to lull my mind back to normality. godspeed, self.