magnetized

what is it? what a week for life in the young man's shoes.

it's time i actually set aside some random blabbering and actually divulge into the inner workings of my mind. while most of my other posts may resemble a spry, yet refined form of madness, i intend to give myself an overview for what i am to myself and who i desire to be. i may deviate from my original idea, as i tend to steer off in terrible tangents, but hopefully the greater idea will hold true. as a 21-year-old and a soon-to-be 22-year-old (sorry for the abuse, hyphen(also, i had to google how to spell hyphen)), i find this age to be the beginning (only to abuse parenthesis immediately after). i've found that any human can agree with this statement: 'i was retarded in middle school/ high school'. it's a twisted social soiree while everyone tries to define themselves and find out who they are. the oh so pleasant memories of trying out a new 'self'. i will have the ability to turn this written reflection up a few years from now and to see how i've changed. i believe that the mind has this innate ability to skew memories when recalling them, so if i actualize it and write it down here, there's not as much lost in translation.

i arrived at my college, which seems to be an institution fully supportive of being oneself. it's a solid place to get started on a new self, with a clean slate beyond the high school abhorrence. i've been attending this college for a total of four years now and will graduate in five. i write this note to myself now, with the intention of exploring myself and figuring out just where i'm situated. on previous mention of a clean slate and for my sanity's sake, i'm going to make this reflection have a post of its own.