to a night's solid rest

now, this is a personal blog, i enjoying writing notes to myself in order to occasionally clear the mind of all the clutter. i differentiate this note from all the previous on behalf of another individual. i dismally report to myself that i may not actually work up the nerve to show her this, but hopefully i see through with my intended goal. i feel the explicit need to express my opinion on a topic we were discussing tonight. so to you, oh-so specific reader, you make take this however you wish. i tend to have difficulty explaining my thoughts with words, but this will be the best attempt i can muster. i feel it as my duty, seeing as i received the vibe that you were in a bit of funk when we spoke last.

in this time, i realize that you're going through quite the amount of stress and personal problems. i lament over you having so much on your plate and as before, express my offer to help if you need anything. i'm not really sure how much i can do in this situation and you spoke of your distaste for pity, but even if it's simply needing someone to talk to, i'm here.

the biggest point i wanted to bring to the table was for you to not feel bad about the situation you and i are in. if you feel bad, please don't. if you don't feel bad, well, then just take this as food for thought. life can really throw curveballs sometimes, to which we're both well-acquainted to the fact. the last thing i want to do is to add additional stress to your already tense life. if anything, i wish for us hanging out to be the opposite, a way to get away. so please, just don't stress about it and take care.

you mentioned missing out on a better opportunity, but i abhor the thought of denying both of us of such an opportunity. you're a strong, unique, interesting, cute, funny, and overall great individual that i've really come to enjoy spending more time with and getting to know more. so thus, i'll wait and we will see how the events unfold. just because you're at a bumpy road in life is no reason for us to just give up on what we have a chance for. i'm willing to wait until your life evens out a bit and you get your feet on solid ground again.

i just wanted to make sure you to knew how i felt about this. it's 1:33 am and i'm going to be heading in for the night.

i wish you a great night and hope you sleep well.
`timtim

i'll depart on the note of a wise quote,
'when you don't know how to say, think, or act, just be.'